Forrest: “That day, for no particular reason, I decided to go for a little run. So I ran to the end of the road. And when I got there, I thought maybe I’d run to the end of town. And when I got there, I thought maybe I’d just run across Greenbow County. And I figured, since I run this far, maybe I’d just run across the great state of Alabama. And that’s what I did. I ran clear across Alabama.
For no particular reason I just kept on going. I ran clear to the ocean. And when I got there, I figured, since I’d gone this far, I might as well turn around, just keep on going. When I got to another ocean, I figured, since I’d gone this far, I might as well just turn back, keep right on going”.
At the end of every year I find myself at another ocean, re-viewing my own “run” . . .
2011 has been an eventful year — Tallulah was falsely blamed for my light-headedness, chest pain. That went on for about 3 months. I was visited by “mysterious visitors” that kept me up all night coughing. That went on for about 6 months. (recurs periodically but still don’t know why). Couldn’t run without pain for about 6 months. (Finally gave in and had a cortisone shot).
I worked 7 days a week. Every week I figured since I already had worked 5 I might as well work two more.
Consequently I got fibro fogged and messed up my appointments – double booking or forgetting to write down the right time or writing the right time on the wrong day …
Those are the things that went wrong. What went right? I’m sure there was a lot – I just don’t remember where I wrote them down.
Not quite sure what I’m suppose to learn from 2011 . . . yet. With years of hindsight I figured out that having fibromyalgia gives me greater compassion; Having heart problems reminds me to wake up everyday with a loving heart; My study of Baha’i removed my fears and gave me faith and a bit of wisdom.
I can hear my friends saying it was time to apply the compassion, love and wisdom to myself and stop running.
Hey, Forrest, pass me the box of chocolates . . .
P.S. In case you didn’t notice, I have been lying on the beach without a computer for the last several days!