I snapped at my husband today. I felt justified to boot.
Why would a therapist, who KNOWS relationship dynamics, why would a therapist who counsels others on how to conduct themselves to make their life better, why would a therapist respond in such an unhealthy way?
Why would a woman with a husband and friends who love her and dog who gives her licks upon request, why would a woman who believes that we are all connected and God is in all feel alone?
Hate to admit it, but I keep getting reminded that I’m human.
After the stress, excitement, tension of being “up & on” all day yesterday I’ve crashed.
My body’s aching, my face, feet, legs and arms are burning, I’m exhausted and yes, I feel alone with it all.
Humbling experience.
Ironically, one of the pictures I talked about yesterday was the collage I did depicting my exhaustion and the part of me who yells to pull myself together, get up and get going, the part of me that just sits, frozen in place, and the exhausted part that just lays there listening.
CURIOUS to the MAX 
IF you feel you need to snap, snap away. BUT, apologize and explain why. My goodness Judith, don’t feel such guilt. You’re human, you’re tired, you are in pain. All you did is snap, probably because you are tired as well. Join us other humans, we all make mistakes. If I wrote a blog post about every time I snapped, I’d have an encyclopedia. Love Laurie F,
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Laurie,
I actually don’t feel guilt. and I actually SNAPPED – kinda like a crockodile – (I always lay low in the water first, before I snap). Hey I like the idea, how about Wickedpedia?
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I’m so IN !
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I am with you today, sister. Humbled, self-critical, defeated (temporarily).
My suffering and I wish to wallow today. Tomorrow can be a good day, and I will accept all the good things out there in the universe just waiting to show me how perfect I am, just as I am, with all my flaws, (ahem) quirks.
Don’t forget to let Max talk to you today. He will remind you that it’s all good. For now, my dogs are sleeping. If I get to the point where I can’t stand myself, I’ll wake them up. They never take it personally.
Hugs and more hugs. Your are perfect, Judy-Judith!
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Jane,
Want to join me and Laurie F. writing a Wickedpedia!?
Thanks for the gift of perfection!
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I’d go with close to perfect but I’m your reality check. Not quite PERFECT PERFECT, you ARE a shrink, you are allowed feelings, mistakes, ice cream and the gift of being human. It’s our little secret. Laurie F. and Lexi
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Hi Laurie – I guess I don’t mean “perfect” as in there’s nothing to improve upon…it’s more of a belief that each of us is a perfect creation of the divine and each of us is following the path set out for ourselves. Perfectly. Perfectly imperfect.?
So I think what I’m saying is, is I think you’re right. 🙂
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You think I’m right? Could you repeat that? LOL. Thanks. Laurie F.
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Laurie F.
I think you may possibly be right if that is possible.
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I really don’t think that’s possible. Laurie F.
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IMPOSSIBLE that you don’t think it’s possible, if you are right, that is. But it is possible you may not be right, if you are wrong.
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*** SPLAT ***
That was my brain exploding, trying to follow the logic. Hmmm. Smaller mess than I expected.
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Jane,
1. There’s never any logic to feelings!
2. Whip up the mess — air will increase the mass!
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@Jane you were trying to follow the logic? First mistake, there is never any logic when Judy/Judith and I are concerned. If it made sense it would be too simple. Nobody understands it (don’t let Judith convince you other wise!) Laurie F.
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Laurie FISHler! Maligning me on Max’s Blog!
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P.S. You’re probably right.
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Oh sure, another attempt to get FISH readers to your blog again. I have one thing to say, Calling Eppiglottitis A BITCH IS A VAST Understatement!!!! Love you. Laurie F.
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I am TOTALLY READY for Wickedpedia! I think my behavior in the past couple weeks proves I am up for the challenge.
I feel so much happier just knowing there are people out there who lose their cool when they don’t feel so great!
p.s. wickedpedia.com is available out there…I’ll do it if you guys do!
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Jane, Laurie F.,
You guyz get it going I’ll be a contributor!
Right now I’ve got a teeeeeeeny tiny toooooo much on my things-not-done-people-depending-on-me-waiting-for-me-to-get-them-done list to spear-head it.
It certainly could be fun and a HUGE CYBER hit. (kinda like “hit” as in “kill)!
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As enthusiastic I feel about the venture, I’m afraid I’m also way behind on my important-things-I-really-have-to-do list, so I’d be wise to not volunteer to do anything. Better to un-volunteer and look a little flaky than volunteer and end up not doing it and proving my current state of unreliability.
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@Jane: I knew Judy would do that!!! Feel free to contact me. We can make it “wicked” bad. Laurie
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You are human. You are more than your profession but in your human moment you recognize that and call upon that training. After being up all day I’m surprised you have enough strength to post. Take care my sweet!
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Rose, Therapists aren’t suppose to be human. I read that in chapter 3 and answered it correctly on the licensing exam!
P.S. Please don’t spread it around that I’m not following the training manual!
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I love Rosemary and who doesn’t?
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