I think my brain is suffering: Impaired Wit, Cerebral shrinkage, Eating binges, Hallucinations, Risky decisions, Anger, Lost memories, False memories, Head-in-the-clouds, slurred speech are some of the impacts from diminished or non-restorative sleep.
However, I won’t tell you which of those my brain is suffering from. You’ll have to read my blog posts to figure it out.
After I was diagnosed with fibomyalgia in 1996 I “treated” myself with therapeutic creative expression in a form of visual journaling. Years later I showed them in a PowerPoint presentation at the National Fibromyalgia Awareness Day in 2009. It was the first time I shared these pictures and I felt a bit exposed and vulnerable.
When I made this collage I was having fun tearing out magazine pictures, concentrating on colors and shapes. The male body underneath the large face was pasted there because I thought it humorous to have a giant female head on a muscular, agile male body.
Until that presentation I had never looked at my pictures from a distance. When I saw this collage projected larger than life onto a screen I was stunned. It takes a LOT to anger me. While anger was outside my conscious awareness my unconscious was furious.
I also realized that the jumping body underneath the female face represents the fibro – strong, active. Above the neck all I can do is be still with fury.
(I’m still not sure what the yellow paper over the nose is about).
The large head sees but doesn’t speak. The small head speaks but doesn’t see.
It still unnerves me a bit.
National Fibromyalgia Day is May 12th and events are going on around the United States.