Creative Expression – Running Out

My husband is always after me to exercise. In Southern California it’s difficult to use weather as an excuse so I’ve been using fibromyalgia brain fog rather creatively:
  • “What!? It’s midnight already!? I was just about ready to go for my walk”
  • “Are you sure? I could swear I exercised today”
  • “I couldn’t walk today. I locked myself in.”
  • “What do you mean the doctor stressed exercise?! I swear she said not to stress over exercise.”
I really had a good reason not to exercise when I began to get light-headed on my walks and figured out it wasn’t the heat, lack of food or dehydration. I suspected my heart arrhythmia.  
(It was heart arrhythmia that led to my getting Tullulah, my pacemaker.)
This is a series of pictures I did when I was first diagnosed with atrial tachycardia.  I wasn’t focusing or even thinking about my heart when I was painting.  I painted spontaneously and very quickly.  The only reason I painted 3 was that I didn’t want to waste paint and throw away what I hadn’t used.  About 6 months later as I was putting together a presentation it hit me that these paintings represented my heart.

It’s easy to identify which picture is my heart in normal rhythm and which paintings represent the various stages of arrythmia.
That is the wonder and power of Therapeutic Creative Expression.
Whether it’s painting on canvas, crayons on paper or magazine pictures in a collage we express our unconscious knowing and inner wisdom.

Now that my arrhythmia’s are under control the most exercise I’m getting is running out of excuses.

judy

The HeART of Spirituality & Wisdom Workshop

The HeART of Spirituality & Wisdom Workshop

My computer crashed the day after our last HeART of Spirituality at Tapestry Unitarian Church. I’ve been cyberless for days.  I tried using my husband’s computer but it drrrrrrrrrove me crrrrrrrrrrrazy.  If I didn’t have the correct attitude it did weird and unexpected things.  I never realized how spoiled I was on an Apple MacBook.  

It also was weird . . . I missed YOU –  bloggers, subscribers, cyber friends – more than I missed the computer.

Now that I’m back on-line I can show you the Contemplation Cards everyone made.  Here’s a sample and if you want to see ALL 9 cards click here:

The HeART of Spirituality & Wisdom:

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Sneak a Peek into my Journal

Visual journaling is more fun for me than written –  I rarely reread my written entries but can look at the visual pages and know instantly what was happening, what I wanted to express (and things I wasn’t consciously aware of expressing!).

I also rarely reread what I write on the blog but the last post on gratitude stuck in my mind.  So here’s my gratitude page AND the process I used . . . in REVERSE ORDER!

Step 3

Added squiggly lines and pastels

This is the finished page – I lost interest in the left side!
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Sept 3: Added squiggly lines and pastels

Step 2

Smeared gesso (white paint works too) over the magazine images to blur them

Finished page - I lost interest in the left side! Paint, collage, pastel

Step 2:  Smeared gesso (white) over top of pictures

Step 1

  • I don’t like working on a white page so I spread paint on the blank page. Cut out about 20 pictures
  • Focused on my “gratitude” and picked pictures that caught my attention.
  • Pasted them down.  Didn’t matter they got wrinkled – just adds texture!
pasted magazine pictures

Step 1: pasted magazine pictures onto page that I smeared with paint.

Can you figure out what the focus of my gratitude was?

Three Heads are Better than Two

 I am not a split personality I’m a “thrip”.  There are three me’s.  
Didn’t consciously intend this drawing to be a self-portrait but I believe that any form of creative expression, whether it be visual art, dance, music etc. is reflective of who we are.
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My first thought is the middle head is being squished which is  reflective of  how exhausted I’ve been lately.   
On second thought,  I wonder if the little head is the glue holding together the other two???

 

Reflections on Me – it’s all about me, isn’t it? – and FREE Stuff

First and foremost: Thank you to all of you for reading my posts, taking your time to comment, clicking on the “like”  or offering your love, insights, personal struggles, poems, pictures and humor.

sunnymars100900002Evolution: I walk a fine line between what to disclose and what to keep private, both as a therapist and as a blogger. As a therapist my training was to never self-disclose. Therapists are supposed to be a “blank slate” upon which clients  project their own feelings, fears and hope.

As I’ve “evolved”, modified or down right let go of more and more of my “training” – what remains always surprises me.  This blog continues to evolve with me and probably surprises you too!

Objective Observation: Clients come in looking for a quick fix – understandable and healthy not to want to remain in a state of  pain, confusion or fear.  They  look to me for my point of view (there goes the blank slate!).  Truth be told, they don’t always like my point of view but I give it anyway.

I am not an expert on life – just an observer, a professional lookie-loo. The only difference between my clients and me is that I “usually” can objectively  observe my own  unhealthy (read, “bad”)  behavior – can’t always stop it but I sure do know what my part is.

Behavior: Time for me to begin to act on my observations. 

Observation: My entire life has been about teaching and sharing what I’ve learned. I didn’t deliberately set out to do this, it seemed to just happened.

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Observation: I’ve accumulated a TON of  “stuff”.  I have closets of  craft supplies, audio recordings, power-point P1030969presentations, creative expression tools & techniques on a variety of topics such as health & wellness, spirituality, psychology, creativity etc, etc.

Behavior #1: I’ve begun to make more changes to this blog.  I’m adding FREE STUFF, rearranging and editing.  Can’t afford to pay anyone so I struggle with the technology side – struggle is putting it mildly –  it is slow going and doesn’t work the way I’d like.

  • It isn’t very “user-friendly”
  • I don’t know how to link things for easy retrieval. (I’ll try to put the new “stuff” at the top.)
  • You’ll have to periodically click on the “FREE STUFF” on the header to see what’s new.
  • I can’t figure out how to create MP3 downloads so the audio recordings will have to be listened to on the blog

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After a 6 month hiatus I will start facilitating live workshops again.  That will help thin out the supply cabinet!  I’ll post the schedules on the blog.

As many of you know, my attention span does not span a lot of time, my interests pull me in many directions and my physical health sometimes puts a damper on my intentions.  So be patient, be encouraging and please share with your friends what I share with you.

"Happy New Year" from Bob the Blob Fish

Happy New Year from Bob the Blob Fish “Humph”

What You Wear is Who You Are!

Iris Apel

Jan asked me after my last post Green Bananas if I thought the women were making a spectacle of themselves.  Great question.

I hope so!  It’s creative expression at its most courageous – using personality as our muse and our bodies as our canvas.

Anyone who has that kind of courage,  to step out of the box and express themselves,  I may not imitate but I do celebrate.

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Be the hit of your own show

God’s stars all. Shine on!

Color, texture, pattern – it’s all around.  Take a look:

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Yes, YOU are creative.

“I’m not creative.  I can’t paint.  I can’t draw”.  Words I hear all the time.

“Yes, You CAN!  Creative expression is not about making something look like a photograph.  It’s about using color and smushes and dabs and globs to symbolically represent anything you want”.  Words I repeat all the time

Take a look at this portrait and poem by Therese Lydia Josef.

 Therese shares her world with wonderful color both in paint and words.   She teaches children’s classes too.  Take a look at some of the kid’s work here.  It’s inspiring.
I Want What She’s Having by therese-joseph

my vision
gone blurry, my focus gone weak
all I can see:
her savour the flavor – no sharing with me

my mouth
closed barely, no sense in my cheek
all I can fate:
is fiction aroma of what she just ate

http://therese-joseph.blogspot.com/2012/07/i-want-what-shes-having.html#

Try it with crayons!  They’re not intimidating.  They’re cheap.

Life is short. Just have fun.

Take a look at the Tutorial Page for some prompts, ideas, inspirations